the year is winding down to a close. even as i'm typing this, the seconds are ticking away and a whole new work year will soon be upon me. my heart's been beating a little faster than usual and it will probably get quicker. you know that dread feeling i've been having? it hasn't really gone away but i have to admit that it was nice to see my colleagues after a long while. in a funny way, i actually missed them. i don't quite know what to expect so for now, the feeling of dread has been replaced by something that is a mish mash of nervousness, excitement, fear with a tinge of curiosity thrown in. it's just a funny feeling that's whirling around in my tummy.
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on to more mundane issues: i managed to go to bukit batok, choa chu kang and vivocity all in the space of 3 hours without the use of a car or a taxi. it was purely a mass transport system that brought me around. i'm amazed. yes, i am. amazing.
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i'm really sleepy at the moment. then again, i'm perpetually sleepy. have u ever seen me not sleepy? then again, u've never quite seen me, have you? so that's rather redundant. oh well.
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oooh...had to attend a wedding. (yes, yet another one.) all i can say is that....interesting. hehehhe....the groom's really funny lah...he screwed up quite a couple of things but hell, if things ran smoothly, i would have been shocked. hehehe...but it was fun...while it lasted...i didn't quite stay for the grand finale.
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at this present moment in time, i'm just sitting down in front of Snowie here and just blanking out. and as i'm doing so, the dream i had last night kinda popped into my mind. i had a dream of me dreaming of a person. something about me not quite figuring out why i keep meeting short guys and voila, the person i was supposed to marry turns out to be a dwarf. which then led me to becoming hysterical and waking up from that dream in my dream to a scenario of telling someone how ridiculous the whole thing was and i don't quite recall what happened next except the fact that i woke up and realized EVERYTHING was a dream. even my innerworkings not quite working. macam mana ni???
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last but not least, to all muslims out there, here's wishing you a blessed aidiladha. to all non-muslims, enjoy the holidays and what's left of 2006. let's all just start off on a clean slate, shall we?
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with that, this blog is now pronounced closed.
at least for 2006. :OP
Saturday, December 30, 2006
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
kimchi, anyone?
I'm trying to come clean. :OP
I don't get it. When I'm not actually "blogging", I seem to have a million things to say or write yet when I'm actually presented with the opportunity to babble happily, I seem to lose focus. Which leads to such mundane thoughts that I'm a little freaked to think that perhaps, that's all my brain's got to offer. Loser.
Heck lah.
Eh...I've been watching a lot of Korean dramas lately. And no, not jewel in the palace. I watch more mundane stuff such as Princess Hours, My Girl etc. So erm, let's just figure something out together now....You know it's a Korean drama when:
1. The female lead's a poverty-stricken shrew and the male lead's a filthy-rich jackass.
2. In spite of shrew factor, female lead always wins heart of jackass's superhunky, too-perfect-to-be-true buddy, also known as Mr Perfect or Mr P, for short.
3. In spite of jackass factor, male lead is actually ultra sweet and being jackassish only because he was in love with some superhot, ultra-cool (hmmmm...) Babe who will eventually fall for him only after figuring out that shrew could potentially be a source of competition for jackass's attention.
4. Shrew and Jackass will always hook up very early in the show but for very unromantic reasons.
5. Shrew and Jackass cannot seem to split up effectively until they have actually fallen in love. Warped concept but hell, I'm not the script writer.
6. There will always be a "makeover" scene where Shrew will be made to look even better than Babe and Jackass, being a jackass will have his jaws dropped and drool dripped. OK, I made the last bit up but something to that effect.
7. Shrew will ALWAYS fall sick and Jackass will ALWAYS look after sick Shrew.
8. Shrew eats like as though there's no tomorrow but looks as though she's been starving her life away. High metabolic rate seems to be a prerequisite.
9. Shrew and Jackass will be jerks to each other but no one else.
10. Shrew will be unshrewified and "normalized" and Jackass will eventually turn into Mr Wuss by the end of the show.
Gist of it:
Girls, become a shrew and then unshrewify yourself.
Boys, be an arse and then wussify yourself.
Moral of the Story:
People fall in love with imperfect individuals as long as they look perfect. In fact, the more questionable your character, the better your chances at finding "bliss". Uh-huh.
Oh....and another thing, there'a always a wuss in every jackass.
And yet, in spite of it all, I'm hooked on them. WTF???
To save my sould, I've been making sure I get a healthy dosage of other shows - The Nanny. But then again, isn't Fran Fine also a shrew? Hmmm....
I don't get it. When I'm not actually "blogging", I seem to have a million things to say or write yet when I'm actually presented with the opportunity to babble happily, I seem to lose focus. Which leads to such mundane thoughts that I'm a little freaked to think that perhaps, that's all my brain's got to offer. Loser.
Heck lah.
Eh...I've been watching a lot of Korean dramas lately. And no, not jewel in the palace. I watch more mundane stuff such as Princess Hours, My Girl etc. So erm, let's just figure something out together now....You know it's a Korean drama when:
1. The female lead's a poverty-stricken shrew and the male lead's a filthy-rich jackass.
2. In spite of shrew factor, female lead always wins heart of jackass's superhunky, too-perfect-to-be-true buddy, also known as Mr Perfect or Mr P, for short.
3. In spite of jackass factor, male lead is actually ultra sweet and being jackassish only because he was in love with some superhot, ultra-cool (hmmmm...) Babe who will eventually fall for him only after figuring out that shrew could potentially be a source of competition for jackass's attention.
4. Shrew and Jackass will always hook up very early in the show but for very unromantic reasons.
5. Shrew and Jackass cannot seem to split up effectively until they have actually fallen in love. Warped concept but hell, I'm not the script writer.
6. There will always be a "makeover" scene where Shrew will be made to look even better than Babe and Jackass, being a jackass will have his jaws dropped and drool dripped. OK, I made the last bit up but something to that effect.
7. Shrew will ALWAYS fall sick and Jackass will ALWAYS look after sick Shrew.
8. Shrew eats like as though there's no tomorrow but looks as though she's been starving her life away. High metabolic rate seems to be a prerequisite.
9. Shrew and Jackass will be jerks to each other but no one else.
10. Shrew will be unshrewified and "normalized" and Jackass will eventually turn into Mr Wuss by the end of the show.
Gist of it:
Girls, become a shrew and then unshrewify yourself.
Boys, be an arse and then wussify yourself.
Moral of the Story:
People fall in love with imperfect individuals as long as they look perfect. In fact, the more questionable your character, the better your chances at finding "bliss". Uh-huh.
Oh....and another thing, there'a always a wuss in every jackass.
And yet, in spite of it all, I'm hooked on them. WTF???
To save my sould, I've been making sure I get a healthy dosage of other shows - The Nanny. But then again, isn't Fran Fine also a shrew? Hmmm....
Let's see here...
My template's gone psycho. My tagboard's missing. My brain froze. So yeah, everything's going really spiffy at the moment.
Been busy of late. Ok, fine. The truth is, I've been lazy AND busy of late. It might sound rather contradictory but seriously, that's how things have been. Initially, I've not been updating due to a mixture of laziness and "I-got-better-things-to-do" syndrome. However, given that my cuzzie got married over the weekend, I honestly did have loads to do. A lot of crappy things happened lah prior to the wedding and it got too insane even for me. I just wanted to stay clear of it all. Fortunately the whole wedding went on rather smoothly although I did find myself peeved quite a few times.
Let me make it clear, I wasn't peeved with the wedding etc but rather the attitude of some of the folks who were around. Before that, I need to make it crystal that I love my family. Including the extended folks in spite and sometimes, because of their imperfections. However, loving people won't make me immune to anger and frustration. (In fact, the more you feel, the angrier you can get. OK fine, turn the yous to I.) So, yeah, I was incredibly pissed. If I ever get married, I'd rather a "stranger-coordinated" affair rather than a "family" one. Somehow, it just doesn't seem to work well. Sigh. It isn't easy getting married into my extended family. It really isn't even though things seem fine and dandy to the superficial eye. Hence, I've made up my mind to be extra-nice to people marrying into the family. I want them to feel welcomed and to at least have someone to talk to. Hopefully, no one will feel alienated coz I somehow understand that feeling and it isn't a nice one at all. I hope I can make a difference in that sense. With that, welcome to the family, dear cuzzies-in-law. And that definitely came from the heart. (Even though you probably will not even know I'm referring to you. Yes, you. Whoever you are.)
So there.
Ooooh. Today was nice.
And the sinking feeling starts to rise again.
Crap.
My template's gone psycho. My tagboard's missing. My brain froze. So yeah, everything's going really spiffy at the moment.
Been busy of late. Ok, fine. The truth is, I've been lazy AND busy of late. It might sound rather contradictory but seriously, that's how things have been. Initially, I've not been updating due to a mixture of laziness and "I-got-better-things-to-do" syndrome. However, given that my cuzzie got married over the weekend, I honestly did have loads to do. A lot of crappy things happened lah prior to the wedding and it got too insane even for me. I just wanted to stay clear of it all. Fortunately the whole wedding went on rather smoothly although I did find myself peeved quite a few times.
Let me make it clear, I wasn't peeved with the wedding etc but rather the attitude of some of the folks who were around. Before that, I need to make it crystal that I love my family. Including the extended folks in spite and sometimes, because of their imperfections. However, loving people won't make me immune to anger and frustration. (In fact, the more you feel, the angrier you can get. OK fine, turn the yous to I.) So, yeah, I was incredibly pissed. If I ever get married, I'd rather a "stranger-coordinated" affair rather than a "family" one. Somehow, it just doesn't seem to work well. Sigh. It isn't easy getting married into my extended family. It really isn't even though things seem fine and dandy to the superficial eye. Hence, I've made up my mind to be extra-nice to people marrying into the family. I want them to feel welcomed and to at least have someone to talk to. Hopefully, no one will feel alienated coz I somehow understand that feeling and it isn't a nice one at all. I hope I can make a difference in that sense. With that, welcome to the family, dear cuzzies-in-law. And that definitely came from the heart. (Even though you probably will not even know I'm referring to you. Yes, you. Whoever you are.)
So there.
Ooooh. Today was nice.
And the sinking feeling starts to rise again.
Crap.
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
Home
Finally!
Blogger's been acting up on me. Asal? Merajok? Ish, ish...
Anyway, been ultra lazy lately. Perhaps, it's a side effect of holidays. On the other hand, it could be the rain. Then again, I could just be cooking up excuses.
Let's try to pick up from where I left off, shall we?
Oh yeah, came back from KL. It was a fun trip. Though, you could say that I had two completely different experiences within that same holiday. You see, I had gone up earlier with 4 others on Thursday while the other three folks joined us on Saturday (ard midnight). The weekenders were essentially there for shopping while the rest of us wanted a holiday of sorts.
Hence, the first two days were rather relaxing whereby we didn't exactly have any kinda plan. We just went with our gut feelings and just erm, whacked it. We were torn between Sunway Lagoon, Genting or Berjaya but somehow or other managed to come to a decision at 8.30 am the following day that we were set on Genting. This is about half an hour before the bus thing was set to depart for Genting. So erm, yeah, last minute decision as always. But hell, it was fun. Oodles of fun. I've not been to an amusement park since I was 18 or was it 19? That would mean a good 6-7 years back. But I do remember the adrenaline rush of being on Cadbury and the viking. Somehow or other, didn't quite get that at Genting. It was kinda swingish most of the time. I guess the closest thing you can get to feeling that rush was on the Thumper thing that kinda dropped u from way up high. But even that only lasted a grand total of 2 seconds when I felt my butt being jolted out of my seat as the thing "dropped" us. But, it was a lot of fun and Genting's got some real pretty sights and the weather's pretty lovely. No blistering hot sun and that was kinda nice.
Well, the next two days were quite simply shopping days and erm, my planner friends went about detailing our shopping route with the focus of a military general on the eve of battle. It was hectic trying to keep up but honestly, I didn't really have much to buy so for most parts, I kinda hung out on my own and hunted out cd shops and bookstores. Yes, I am THAT boring. I did almost get lost a couple of times because of my gatal-sendiri solo trips but all is well. Ultimately, I did buy stuff lah though the bulk of it were gifts for my family such as chocolates, candles and other decorative stuff.
Speaking of decorative, I came across this place called "Arch" which sold what were essentially decorative stuff made of wood and they were so pretty. There were models of kampungs, intricate wood engravings etc. Nice place and come to think of it, the sales dude was pretty cute. Oh well.
Well, I'm back in Singapore. I can't say that I'm horribly upset about it but neither can I say that I'm thrilled. There is this heaviness that seems to have settled in quite nicely and I can't seem to shake it off. But that's another tale to tell.
For now, at least I'm home.
Blogger's been acting up on me. Asal? Merajok? Ish, ish...
Anyway, been ultra lazy lately. Perhaps, it's a side effect of holidays. On the other hand, it could be the rain. Then again, I could just be cooking up excuses.
Let's try to pick up from where I left off, shall we?
Oh yeah, came back from KL. It was a fun trip. Though, you could say that I had two completely different experiences within that same holiday. You see, I had gone up earlier with 4 others on Thursday while the other three folks joined us on Saturday (ard midnight). The weekenders were essentially there for shopping while the rest of us wanted a holiday of sorts.
Hence, the first two days were rather relaxing whereby we didn't exactly have any kinda plan. We just went with our gut feelings and just erm, whacked it. We were torn between Sunway Lagoon, Genting or Berjaya but somehow or other managed to come to a decision at 8.30 am the following day that we were set on Genting. This is about half an hour before the bus thing was set to depart for Genting. So erm, yeah, last minute decision as always. But hell, it was fun. Oodles of fun. I've not been to an amusement park since I was 18 or was it 19? That would mean a good 6-7 years back. But I do remember the adrenaline rush of being on Cadbury and the viking. Somehow or other, didn't quite get that at Genting. It was kinda swingish most of the time. I guess the closest thing you can get to feeling that rush was on the Thumper thing that kinda dropped u from way up high. But even that only lasted a grand total of 2 seconds when I felt my butt being jolted out of my seat as the thing "dropped" us. But, it was a lot of fun and Genting's got some real pretty sights and the weather's pretty lovely. No blistering hot sun and that was kinda nice.
Well, the next two days were quite simply shopping days and erm, my planner friends went about detailing our shopping route with the focus of a military general on the eve of battle. It was hectic trying to keep up but honestly, I didn't really have much to buy so for most parts, I kinda hung out on my own and hunted out cd shops and bookstores. Yes, I am THAT boring. I did almost get lost a couple of times because of my gatal-sendiri solo trips but all is well. Ultimately, I did buy stuff lah though the bulk of it were gifts for my family such as chocolates, candles and other decorative stuff.
Speaking of decorative, I came across this place called "Arch" which sold what were essentially decorative stuff made of wood and they were so pretty. There were models of kampungs, intricate wood engravings etc. Nice place and come to think of it, the sales dude was pretty cute. Oh well.
Well, I'm back in Singapore. I can't say that I'm horribly upset about it but neither can I say that I'm thrilled. There is this heaviness that seems to have settled in quite nicely and I can't seem to shake it off. But that's another tale to tell.
For now, at least I'm home.
Monday, December 18, 2006
Thursday, December 14, 2006
Monday, December 11, 2006
collage
Certain things make me want to puke. OK fine, putting it nicely, certain things make me nauseous.
Funny things is, these things aren't limited to foods, smells or weirdo rides on weirdo vehicles. I mean, I have this baseballish type T-shirt with peachy sleeves...well...that T-shirt definitely makes me nauseous. Just looking at it puts my tummy in a whirl and my throat goes all funny and I just want to go bullimic. Recently, I saw this top of sorts...that too made me want to puke. Hmm...it's not that I don't like the tops...(for goodness sake, I bought one of those) but it doesn't change the fact that these things do give me a funny feeling...oh well...
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On the other hand, I love boat rides. I like the whole bobbing up and down and then, the slicing through waters and the squirts that you get...
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I'm feeling a little depressed lah...My job's starting soon and it's just making me feel really down...It's bad to feel this way about the job. I mean, I used to love it, damnit. A friend says I'm too nostalgic. Perhaps. I shouldn't be. I should be forward looking and be bright and cheery and to a large extent, I do present myself as such. But, it doesn't change the fact that there's this aching void...it's like I lost something along the way...
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Anyway, yesterday was pretty nice. Met fuz for a bit. You know, I had a feeling that we might just miss the person and I did tell fuz that and what dya know? We almost did. No matter, really. It happens to us all the time. Anyway, been some time really since I met fuz but it doesn't matter, does it? Guess, being frens for so long kinda eases things. No matter what, fuz is the one person who understands me even when I myself, have trouble making sense of what I think or say. Kesian dia...lama kena suffer...Oh yeah, we kinda have this agreement whereby I would have to get married no later than 1 year after she gets married and she needs to make sure that should she be pregnant during my wedding, it has to be at the most, a two month pregnancy. Yeah...and no, we cannot get married in the same month of the same year. Our rationale is quite simple, if she's too pregnant, she can't help out during my wedding. And I have to marry after her, because she's always so slow so I need to give her the headstart. And we cannot get married in the same month coz again, we wouldn't be able to help each other out. Seeeee...we ARE rationale.
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In the later part of the day, met up with another trio of friends. Went to JB for dinner and yup, mr alf got lost while mrs alf slept. Amazingly, it was not my fault! Gosh, things progress so quickly and before you know it, life kinda swerves in another direction. The last time I had dinner with these folks in jb, keparat had also joined us. But, now that keparat's a korporated keparat and erm, us just drifting apart slowly...he's kinda missing from the picture...I do miss him, you know? He is my keparated brudder after all...
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Today's just going to be ultra slack lah...I think I'd call today my couch potato day!!! I have to make me happy and I will. So there.
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Bye!
Funny things is, these things aren't limited to foods, smells or weirdo rides on weirdo vehicles. I mean, I have this baseballish type T-shirt with peachy sleeves...well...that T-shirt definitely makes me nauseous. Just looking at it puts my tummy in a whirl and my throat goes all funny and I just want to go bullimic. Recently, I saw this top of sorts...that too made me want to puke. Hmm...it's not that I don't like the tops...(for goodness sake, I bought one of those) but it doesn't change the fact that these things do give me a funny feeling...oh well...
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On the other hand, I love boat rides. I like the whole bobbing up and down and then, the slicing through waters and the squirts that you get...
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I'm feeling a little depressed lah...My job's starting soon and it's just making me feel really down...It's bad to feel this way about the job. I mean, I used to love it, damnit. A friend says I'm too nostalgic. Perhaps. I shouldn't be. I should be forward looking and be bright and cheery and to a large extent, I do present myself as such. But, it doesn't change the fact that there's this aching void...it's like I lost something along the way...
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Anyway, yesterday was pretty nice. Met fuz for a bit. You know, I had a feeling that we might just miss the person and I did tell fuz that and what dya know? We almost did. No matter, really. It happens to us all the time. Anyway, been some time really since I met fuz but it doesn't matter, does it? Guess, being frens for so long kinda eases things. No matter what, fuz is the one person who understands me even when I myself, have trouble making sense of what I think or say. Kesian dia...lama kena suffer...Oh yeah, we kinda have this agreement whereby I would have to get married no later than 1 year after she gets married and she needs to make sure that should she be pregnant during my wedding, it has to be at the most, a two month pregnancy. Yeah...and no, we cannot get married in the same month of the same year. Our rationale is quite simple, if she's too pregnant, she can't help out during my wedding. And I have to marry after her, because she's always so slow so I need to give her the headstart. And we cannot get married in the same month coz again, we wouldn't be able to help each other out. Seeeee...we ARE rationale.
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In the later part of the day, met up with another trio of friends. Went to JB for dinner and yup, mr alf got lost while mrs alf slept. Amazingly, it was not my fault! Gosh, things progress so quickly and before you know it, life kinda swerves in another direction. The last time I had dinner with these folks in jb, keparat had also joined us. But, now that keparat's a korporated keparat and erm, us just drifting apart slowly...he's kinda missing from the picture...I do miss him, you know? He is my keparated brudder after all...
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Today's just going to be ultra slack lah...I think I'd call today my couch potato day!!! I have to make me happy and I will. So there.
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Bye!
Saturday, December 09, 2006
sneaky peeks
Back in Singapore again...oh well...(Singapore looks real pretty at night...at least from way above...)
Anyway, it was a very nice trip...met incredibly warm hearted people and an experience that would not be forgotten easily. Just a brief summary, we(me and travelbud stayed in the Kuta area though when we had the chance, we did go up to Uluwatu and Kintamani. Unfortunately, we had to give Lovina and Nusa Dua a miss but Insya Allah, we will when we go over again....we definitely would want to go again...Nice learning experience really...
Kinda tired and hate uploading shots...takes forever so I'm just going to share my three favourites, all of which were taken at Uluwatu...so here you go -
I like this sign...the monkeys rule...literally...(Psssst: It reads "Only monkeys can litter")
This guy kinda confirms the whole monkey-rules thing...He may look all fat and innocent but behind that facade of tranquility (ala Hanuman), this is one heck of a monyet...In fact, most of the monkeys are real monkeys...They've all got sneaky moves up their little, erm, furs...Little, or in this case, not-so-little SNEAK!!!
Now, this is my all-time favourite shot...It captures the essence of how I feel about Bali - an unreal beauty that seems to defy the ravages of time and retains its serenity...
That's all folks!
Anyway, it was a very nice trip...met incredibly warm hearted people and an experience that would not be forgotten easily. Just a brief summary, we(me and travelbud stayed in the Kuta area though when we had the chance, we did go up to Uluwatu and Kintamani. Unfortunately, we had to give Lovina and Nusa Dua a miss but Insya Allah, we will when we go over again....we definitely would want to go again...Nice learning experience really...
Kinda tired and hate uploading shots...takes forever so I'm just going to share my three favourites, all of which were taken at Uluwatu...so here you go -
I like this sign...the monkeys rule...literally...(Psssst: It reads "Only monkeys can litter")
This guy kinda confirms the whole monkey-rules thing...He may look all fat and innocent but behind that facade of tranquility (ala Hanuman), this is one heck of a monyet...In fact, most of the monkeys are real monkeys...They've all got sneaky moves up their little, erm, furs...Little, or in this case, not-so-little SNEAK!!!
Now, this is my all-time favourite shot...It captures the essence of how I feel about Bali - an unreal beauty that seems to defy the ravages of time and retains its serenity...
That's all folks!
Monday, December 04, 2006
flippin' mad
Alo...
I overate and now I feel ultra bloated. Padan muka.
Let's see now, I've been grouchy of late but no more...at least not for the next 4 days, Insya Allah becozzzz....I'm off to Bali!!! Whoopiedeeeee!!! I have not packed. Nope. Not a thing but that's just me being me. So, no matter...
Fruitless day today but then again, was it all that fruitless? Hmmm...Anyhow, finished reading Books 1 and 2 of the trilogy so I'd be moving on to the third. And yessiree, flipper (my bookflip) has been ultra useful. I don't think flipper likes her name though...She seems a little aloof which means that she needs to flip more often so flipper it is...
Now...I'm actually sitting in the midst of an incredibly messy room...betull...tak bohong!!! I'm supposed to clean it up before Bali but erm...looking around...I'm in for a loooooonnngggg night if I intend to do so...which is a choiceless situation really considering that my mum will probably give me endless lectures should i not...
So erm...anyway, I've been rather rubbish-y but I guess it's time to really do some hyper-ranting...
I don't get it. Why is it that people can be so bloody blinded by their prejudices that they do not see the hurt they are inflicting on someone who is pretty much blameless in the matter. I mean, I get it...people have problems with each other...some take it further than they should and usually, the matter is of a ridiculous nature. However, don't bring others into it. Don't wreck another person's majlis just because your egos' bruised. Effin hell...I'm super pissed...
Part of me just wants to do something reckless like tell them off in their faces or something but I know if I were to do it, I'd be wrecking havoc not only to myself but also to my family and honestly, we don't need anymore of such shit. I'm telling you, my parents have the patience of a saint, especially my mum. She's got a temper and all but she never loses her cool when dealing with petty matters. Which is something I want to emulate.
So, I'm biting my tongue back and just going with the flow...It's alright, they can be as idiotic as they wish to be...I'm just going to continue helping the "innocent"...No sense getting pulled into the skirmish...Perhaps, I could even be the mediator? I know lah...a bit the fat lah the hope but I have to be neutral...No one can stop me from helping someone. Hmmm...sometimes, being the odd one out does allow certain benefits...Others may get hell but me or any of my family for that matter? We get away with it...because we've always been the oddity.
But enough about me...I'm leaving for Bali so I'd just leave my cares behind...I just want to break free, even if it means just for a little while.
BYE!
(PS. I'm developing wrist muscles. I think.)
I overate and now I feel ultra bloated. Padan muka.
Let's see now, I've been grouchy of late but no more...at least not for the next 4 days, Insya Allah becozzzz....I'm off to Bali!!! Whoopiedeeeee!!! I have not packed. Nope. Not a thing but that's just me being me. So, no matter...
Fruitless day today but then again, was it all that fruitless? Hmmm...Anyhow, finished reading Books 1 and 2 of the trilogy so I'd be moving on to the third. And yessiree, flipper (my bookflip) has been ultra useful. I don't think flipper likes her name though...She seems a little aloof which means that she needs to flip more often so flipper it is...
Now...I'm actually sitting in the midst of an incredibly messy room...betull...tak bohong!!! I'm supposed to clean it up before Bali but erm...looking around...I'm in for a loooooonnngggg night if I intend to do so...which is a choiceless situation really considering that my mum will probably give me endless lectures should i not...
So erm...anyway, I've been rather rubbish-y but I guess it's time to really do some hyper-ranting...
I don't get it. Why is it that people can be so bloody blinded by their prejudices that they do not see the hurt they are inflicting on someone who is pretty much blameless in the matter. I mean, I get it...people have problems with each other...some take it further than they should and usually, the matter is of a ridiculous nature. However, don't bring others into it. Don't wreck another person's majlis just because your egos' bruised. Effin hell...I'm super pissed...
Part of me just wants to do something reckless like tell them off in their faces or something but I know if I were to do it, I'd be wrecking havoc not only to myself but also to my family and honestly, we don't need anymore of such shit. I'm telling you, my parents have the patience of a saint, especially my mum. She's got a temper and all but she never loses her cool when dealing with petty matters. Which is something I want to emulate.
So, I'm biting my tongue back and just going with the flow...It's alright, they can be as idiotic as they wish to be...I'm just going to continue helping the "innocent"...No sense getting pulled into the skirmish...Perhaps, I could even be the mediator? I know lah...a bit the fat lah the hope but I have to be neutral...No one can stop me from helping someone. Hmmm...sometimes, being the odd one out does allow certain benefits...Others may get hell but me or any of my family for that matter? We get away with it...because we've always been the oddity.
But enough about me...I'm leaving for Bali so I'd just leave my cares behind...I just want to break free, even if it means just for a little while.
BYE!
(PS. I'm developing wrist muscles. I think.)
Sunday, December 03, 2006
one, two, three...
Went to Geylang to look for something. Didn't quite get it. Damn it. (Geylang's real different without the bazaars...hmmm) So, got some sappy love story instead. Mummy dearest said that it's nice so since I've been quite a donkey lately, I went ahead and got it. Even though, I know I'm not going to like it much. I hate tearjerkers. Especially overloaded types...like "hikmah" and most other sinetrons, serials etc...aiyah..never mind..think of the message...the message...(ooh...the message's a good film...not the messenger, mind you. we're not doing french history/myth here...)
Went on to Bugis. Didn't find the other thing I was looking for. Crap.
But...all is not lost...
I found me my bag. Salesperson was real sweet too...she kinda let me use her discount or something... hehehe....shhhhh...jangan bilang orang...rahsia....(on second thought, did i have that "pity-me" label on my face again?!)
And another thing, I've been on a crazy reading spree of sorts...and I'm in the fantasy phase of things...so, erm...got me three new books...actually, should count them as one coz they're part of a trilogy.
Well, see here...I've just recently completed Eragon and Eldest. I'm not going to say that they're the best of reads but I like dragons and talking ones with conscience are pretty cool. (But seriously, the author's got to make himself more unique the next time he attempts fantasy...for a young dude, it's forgivable but no more...Tolkien is Tolkien and Middle-earth and all the connecting histories are his...Don't try to be a Tolkien. But oh well...)
So...I've just embarked on a new world...this time, that of magicians...starting with "The Magician's Guild" by Trudi Canavan. So far, so good...but heheh...the cutest thing I've come across today would be the book flip...It's just so cool...you see, there are two parts to the flip...one's a clip of sorts while the other's this dangly string...soooo...what you do is to clip the flip to the spine of your book and use the string as a the bookmark...that way...you will never lose your bookmark...isn't that clever? at least, i think so....:OP...i did mention that small things amuse small minds, didn't I?
Anyway, my 3 happy thingies...
1. My books...
2. Bus rides....
3. My bookflip
(For more information on bookflips, feel free to check out bookflip.com)
Went on to Bugis. Didn't find the other thing I was looking for. Crap.
But...all is not lost...
I found me my bag. Salesperson was real sweet too...she kinda let me use her discount or something... hehehe....shhhhh...jangan bilang orang...rahsia....(on second thought, did i have that "pity-me" label on my face again?!)
And another thing, I've been on a crazy reading spree of sorts...and I'm in the fantasy phase of things...so, erm...got me three new books...actually, should count them as one coz they're part of a trilogy.
Well, see here...I've just recently completed Eragon and Eldest. I'm not going to say that they're the best of reads but I like dragons and talking ones with conscience are pretty cool. (But seriously, the author's got to make himself more unique the next time he attempts fantasy...for a young dude, it's forgivable but no more...Tolkien is Tolkien and Middle-earth and all the connecting histories are his...Don't try to be a Tolkien. But oh well...)
So...I've just embarked on a new world...this time, that of magicians...starting with "The Magician's Guild" by Trudi Canavan. So far, so good...but heheh...the cutest thing I've come across today would be the book flip...It's just so cool...you see, there are two parts to the flip...one's a clip of sorts while the other's this dangly string...soooo...what you do is to clip the flip to the spine of your book and use the string as a the bookmark...that way...you will never lose your bookmark...isn't that clever? at least, i think so....:OP...i did mention that small things amuse small minds, didn't I?
Anyway, my 3 happy thingies...
1. My books...
2. Bus rides....
3. My bookflip
(For more information on bookflips, feel free to check out bookflip.com)
season of giving
We meet again, my friend.
Got back pretty late last night coz of wedding dinner. This is the third such celebration I've attended in the past 3 weeks or so and I'm spared from other similar affairs only because of there was no "halal" menu for them...They (brides/grooms) apologized and never have apologies been met with such sincere avowals of "it's ok". I mean it, it's really, really ok. Mahal banget si ini wedding dinner. It's like prom (which I did not attend) kena multiplied. Eh, don't get me wrong...the gifts are ikhlas but hell people, couldn't you guys space out your wedding dates or something? It's freaking draining.
And I still got a couple more to go. Eh salah...at least 3 more, one of which is my own cousin's. This one cannot be helped lah..I'm kinda excited about it coz he's marrying my friend's cousin! The interconnectedness of this whole situation is rather cute. But then again, this interconnectedness is pretty common though it has always managed to amaze and amuse me.
Speaking of being amused, I've just been amused. I didn't realize that I was linked to some pgl musical blogspot review thing. It's a bit the weird to see yourself linked...aku tak tahu pon. Kalau tahu, aku boleh eksyen jadi reviewer...hehhee...one of my "berangan"(daydreaming) moments again...But, I am amused.
People say small things amuse small minds. Erm...fair enough.
Gee...I feel super tired at the moment...
***
3 things that made me happy (yesterday)
1. Seeing my colleagues at the wedding dinner and just having fun throughout the entire, hmmm, thing.
2. Seeing surprised/shocked expressions turn into smiles.
3. Getting home before midnight.
***
Got back pretty late last night coz of wedding dinner. This is the third such celebration I've attended in the past 3 weeks or so and I'm spared from other similar affairs only because of there was no "halal" menu for them...They (brides/grooms) apologized and never have apologies been met with such sincere avowals of "it's ok". I mean it, it's really, really ok. Mahal banget si ini wedding dinner. It's like prom (which I did not attend) kena multiplied. Eh, don't get me wrong...the gifts are ikhlas but hell people, couldn't you guys space out your wedding dates or something? It's freaking draining.
And I still got a couple more to go. Eh salah...at least 3 more, one of which is my own cousin's. This one cannot be helped lah..I'm kinda excited about it coz he's marrying my friend's cousin! The interconnectedness of this whole situation is rather cute. But then again, this interconnectedness is pretty common though it has always managed to amaze and amuse me.
Speaking of being amused, I've just been amused. I didn't realize that I was linked to some pgl musical blogspot review thing. It's a bit the weird to see yourself linked...aku tak tahu pon. Kalau tahu, aku boleh eksyen jadi reviewer...hehhee...one of my "berangan"(daydreaming) moments again...But, I am amused.
People say small things amuse small minds. Erm...fair enough.
Gee...I feel super tired at the moment...
***
3 things that made me happy (yesterday)
1. Seeing my colleagues at the wedding dinner and just having fun throughout the entire, hmmm, thing.
2. Seeing surprised/shocked expressions turn into smiles.
3. Getting home before midnight.
***
Saturday, December 02, 2006
sorry
Aiseh man...I was in Marina yet again. Only consolation is that I did not go to Suntec. Tapi ini muka ada plaster "city hall".
Anyway, went to work. It was just merepek. All those I needed to see weren't around so, bummer. My colleague cum friend was late so I went off first and waited for her for about 90 mins or so at Delifrance. You see, we were supposed to dash off together to "prepare" for our Bali trip. No big deal lah...I got to read my book so erm...that was fine.
Anyhow, we finally managed to scoot off and so we did. Spent ages deciding on friggin' stationery and erm, by the time we started to "prepare", the shop was closing so we did what we could - troop down to Esplanade. Erm, lady singing to crowd wasn't that great but oh well...
This is where we had quite a long conversation. About insecurities, marriage, support, sorrow etc. Along the way, I kinda realized how we often overlook things that are at hand while pining for those that are not. However, we forget that the overlooked are the ones that give us the support that we sorely need and look to. For example, in a class of 30 - 40. The naughty ones will stand out. Those will give you the heartache and yet those are the ones you try the darnednest to "win over" or at least "control". However, when you feel that things are just falling apart, you kinda look to the "stable" ones to keep you stable...I mean, that's for me lah...So erm, yah...
Aiyah...at this moment, I'm just too tired to think really...so erm...bye!
***
3 things that made me happy yesterday -
1. Having a brownie with ice cream.
2. Sitting by the water thing at Esplanade and just talking.
3. The bus ride home.
2 things I have learnt from today -
1. Realizing that you can't empathize with everything and everyone but you can definitely try to understand. (If you have not lived through something, empathizing feels rather superficial and can be pretty insulting to the person going through the trauma...but heck...)
2. I hide my insecurities behind my ego and it hurts others. I'm sorry.
***
Anyway, went to work. It was just merepek. All those I needed to see weren't around so, bummer. My colleague cum friend was late so I went off first and waited for her for about 90 mins or so at Delifrance. You see, we were supposed to dash off together to "prepare" for our Bali trip. No big deal lah...I got to read my book so erm...that was fine.
Anyhow, we finally managed to scoot off and so we did. Spent ages deciding on friggin' stationery and erm, by the time we started to "prepare", the shop was closing so we did what we could - troop down to Esplanade. Erm, lady singing to crowd wasn't that great but oh well...
This is where we had quite a long conversation. About insecurities, marriage, support, sorrow etc. Along the way, I kinda realized how we often overlook things that are at hand while pining for those that are not. However, we forget that the overlooked are the ones that give us the support that we sorely need and look to. For example, in a class of 30 - 40. The naughty ones will stand out. Those will give you the heartache and yet those are the ones you try the darnednest to "win over" or at least "control". However, when you feel that things are just falling apart, you kinda look to the "stable" ones to keep you stable...I mean, that's for me lah...So erm, yah...
Aiyah...at this moment, I'm just too tired to think really...so erm...bye!
***
3 things that made me happy yesterday -
1. Having a brownie with ice cream.
2. Sitting by the water thing at Esplanade and just talking.
3. The bus ride home.
2 things I have learnt from today -
1. Realizing that you can't empathize with everything and everyone but you can definitely try to understand. (If you have not lived through something, empathizing feels rather superficial and can be pretty insulting to the person going through the trauma...but heck...)
2. I hide my insecurities behind my ego and it hurts others. I'm sorry.
***
Friday, December 01, 2006
the "date"
Allo.
I just got back from my "date" and suffice to say that it was a blast.
As mentioned, I didn't get the flowers but I did bring enough epok-epok to feed the whole family. It was nice to see Cik X again after so long. She spoke to me of responsibilities and parenthood and stuff which kinda made me feel bad about how I behave towards my parents. It was kinda a good reminder lah.
My "date" was late but it was great once she turned up. She liked the dress and I finally got to give her her long overdue wedding gift. I didn't expect to get home so late but as it was, her hubby decided to join us once he knocked off from work and as such, we proceeded to Simpang Bedok for a late dinner. It was just whacky sitting down there and babbling and it kinda dawned on me how much I missed those times when we used to hang out that way at various places some time back.
They finally 'fessed up that they, or rather, my idiotic adik angkat did try to matchmake me once upon some time ago. I knew it at that stage and today simply confirmed it. I've said it once and I'd say it again - DO NOT ATTEMPT TO MATCHMAKE ME. I recall that pathetic attempt. I refused to speak to the guy and basically ignored him most of the time precisely because I knew they (my "darling" friends) were up to something.
Another thing is, I dunno why lah but she (my "date") is the third person who thinks that I probably will not marry a local. I do not know why. What am I? Alien? Mana lah aku nak cari non-local? Kan ke merepek? Ntah lah...Jodoh pertemuan's not in my hands anyway. I'd just live as I always have and in time, things will happen when they're supposed to.
On another note, my mother thinks I have a bf. She has not said it out loud but it's so duh oredi lah. Kesian mummy dearest. She seriously thinks that I'm hiding something from her. Dia tak tahu yang anak dia ni betul betul takde masa untuk berdating-dating. Dia pon tak sedar anak dia ni ada sikit biol. Manalah ada orang yang sanggup buang masa ngan orang yang tak stabil ni? Haiseh mother, rilek ah...Gua swinging single lah...
***
Anyway, today was nice so hmmm, I'd just post three things that made me happiest:
1. Seeing "date" and family plus hubby and hanging out till midnight.
2. Getting to pet the eksyen terror cat which was so damn adorable.
3. The long bus ride and long walk that helped calm my nerves and gave me a sense of peace for a while. I needed that alone time for a bit.
***
I just got back from my "date" and suffice to say that it was a blast.
As mentioned, I didn't get the flowers but I did bring enough epok-epok to feed the whole family. It was nice to see Cik X again after so long. She spoke to me of responsibilities and parenthood and stuff which kinda made me feel bad about how I behave towards my parents. It was kinda a good reminder lah.
My "date" was late but it was great once she turned up. She liked the dress and I finally got to give her her long overdue wedding gift. I didn't expect to get home so late but as it was, her hubby decided to join us once he knocked off from work and as such, we proceeded to Simpang Bedok for a late dinner. It was just whacky sitting down there and babbling and it kinda dawned on me how much I missed those times when we used to hang out that way at various places some time back.
They finally 'fessed up that they, or rather, my idiotic adik angkat did try to matchmake me once upon some time ago. I knew it at that stage and today simply confirmed it. I've said it once and I'd say it again - DO NOT ATTEMPT TO MATCHMAKE ME. I recall that pathetic attempt. I refused to speak to the guy and basically ignored him most of the time precisely because I knew they (my "darling" friends) were up to something.
Another thing is, I dunno why lah but she (my "date") is the third person who thinks that I probably will not marry a local. I do not know why. What am I? Alien? Mana lah aku nak cari non-local? Kan ke merepek? Ntah lah...Jodoh pertemuan's not in my hands anyway. I'd just live as I always have and in time, things will happen when they're supposed to.
On another note, my mother thinks I have a bf. She has not said it out loud but it's so duh oredi lah. Kesian mummy dearest. She seriously thinks that I'm hiding something from her. Dia tak tahu yang anak dia ni betul betul takde masa untuk berdating-dating. Dia pon tak sedar anak dia ni ada sikit biol. Manalah ada orang yang sanggup buang masa ngan orang yang tak stabil ni? Haiseh mother, rilek ah...Gua swinging single lah...
***
Anyway, today was nice so hmmm, I'd just post three things that made me happiest:
1. Seeing "date" and family plus hubby and hanging out till midnight.
2. Getting to pet the eksyen terror cat which was so damn adorable.
3. The long bus ride and long walk that helped calm my nerves and gave me a sense of peace for a while. I needed that alone time for a bit.
***
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